I scored so many perfect scores in one of my mathematics courses that I earned 709 points in the class, and 700 were required for an A+.
Looking back on this, it almost puzzles me that - for the past several years - my self-belief has wavered and stood on shaky ground. I say almost, because I do, in fact, know why it happened.
No need to go in-depth. Life is harsh. People say mean things. The sting of failure - and the criticism (from voices within and without) that accompanies it - can prove fatal to self-confidence, and your sense of self. At times, it seemed the destruction of my soul was so complete, that I wondered if I would ever regain hope, let alone return to my former glory.
Today, I realize that my former glory is but a shadow of what I am about to obtain. The sharpness of my mind has returned with a vengeance that feels stronger than any force that has ever acted against my mind. Psychologically speaking, my thoughts are images and words. And at one point, those images and words seemed to revolve around defeat, and my inability to rise.
Friedrich Nietzsche asked: Is it better to out-monster the monster, or to be quietly devoured?
For the past several years, I have had the sense that I was being eaten alive, being nibbled to death by the words from small mouths attached to small minds. It was almost as though I was infected by the mediocrity around me.
Most people will never understand what it feels like to close a six-figure deal, let alone make six figures in a year. The opinions of such people remind me of the masses in The Matrix trilogy. They are plugged into the system, and don't realize it. So unaware, that they are unaware of how unaware they are.
The above video begins with Cornell West quoting Nietzsche: "God is dead. Love is dead." This is one of Nietzsche's most infamous statements, which reflects one of his greatest ponderings: Once you realize that the beliefs that you thoughtlessly accepted early in life are false, what do you do? The answer, according to Nietzsche is that you do. You will yourself to do the actions that are right. What is right? That is up to you.
Nietzsche's Ubermensch is a creature that is to man what man is to the ape. He is the next step in the chain. And as the video above so eloquently states, the Ubermensch is awake. He is enLIGHTened, and we as see with Zarasthustra, living among the unenlightened is a nightmare for the Ubermensch. But in despite this, he does not think he is, he knows he is. He knows, he is the Ubermensch, and he wills to do what he is to do. It is really that simple. And it does not matter that the baying flock of sheeple doubt him, misunderstand him, and misinterpret him. Like Zarasthustra, he knows that proper companions await him once he ri$es to prominence. He knows that is fate is to be associated with a memory of something tremendous, as Nietzsche himself did. He knows that this something will be "a crisis without equal on earth, a most profound collision of conscience, conjured up against everything that had been believed, demanded, hallowed so far."
Nietzsche was a brave soul. I can only hope for his courage as I rise into the light.
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