So Close

Quietly dealing with the pain, biting my tongue, screaming "Ubermen$ch over everything" in my head.

I never knew that I would grow up to live out this twisted, beautiful story.

I didn't know that I would experience so much pain that I would want to die.

I didn't know that my loved ones were going to crucify me.

I didn't know that my life's circumstances would make me stand up with both middle-fingers raised and yell:  "Fuck you middle-class millionaires, with your wack ass businesses, and all the people who are impressed, idiotically confusing your mediocrity with superiority."

I didn't know that going to college so young would eliminate my childhood, and turn my adulthood into a resurrection movie.

I didn't know, while in the depths of hell, that God would smile down on me from the heavens.  I didn't know that right when it felt like I should give up, I would be filled with the power, light and glory of all the stars in all of the galaxies.

They have no idea that I will have the opportunity to conventrate the living fuck out of everyone and everything that dared to stand against me, that dared to do dirt behind my back, that dared to think that I would not rise all the way the fuck up - (FUCK all of Maya Angelou's poems by the way, I used to think they were special, but they're just nectar for the nitwitted masses) - and completely obliterate every vestige of my enemies.

They have no idea what's coming.  Some might think they know, but no one does.  When King Alexander and his army finally invaded the walled city of Tyre, it is said that his men were finally able to satiate the hatred and rage that had built up during the development of the siege.  So shall it be when this money comes in.  They have no idea what's coming.

You have no idea.